Today I met friends who have just came back from OBS. Haha... Some really do look like lobsters, though it wasn't really that bad, unlike the last time I went. I dunno why, it felt like weeks since I last saw them. Perhaps, school was really boring without those guys to bring about fun and laughter to the class. Somehow, I felt happy to see them back from camp. From the gathering we had earlier, I sensed that the bonds between our class has grown somewhat stronger. Despite that, I felt a little dissapointed. The bonds between our class got stronger, but at the expense of somebody. I am not going to say who, but that person is somebody I had known for the past three months. I don't seem to understand it. She was a very friendly person when I met her, but from what my friends say, she is a bossy, irritating person. Either I am not observant, or there is a serious misunderstanding between her and the class. Anyway, I thought OBS was supposed to build bonds between one another... That being said, I think it is unfair to judge a person whom you have barely met. Sometimes, we all just have to accept one another for who we are. No one is perfect you know. Besides, instead of shunning her, they should probably start by being friendlier to her... There is no point telling one another how bad she is. In the end, it doen't solve any probem and make it worse instead. Haiz... I know that feeling too well. I experienced to feeling of being isolated in secondary school, and I don't intend to let it repeat itself once more. It is a terrible feeling, one that would eat up your happiness. From the inside.... Well, hope this will not happen. Its gonna be a sad thing if it did.
Today I watched my friends leaving for OBS. I watched them leave, while I am here in school, listening to boring teachers teaching us about public speaking. I watched them leave with a slight twinge of dissapointment. OBS is something that I was looking forward to, a camp not to be missed. What a pity. Well, I fractured my wrist not long ago, and it is still not fully recovered, thats why I was not allowed to go. Sad, but that's the reality that I have to face. So what if I am allowed to go then? I would still be missing out most of the fun activities going on in OBS, and that's not going to help in the so-called "bonding" between me and my friends. Ah, just as well, out of 15 in a group, there is only 2 guys. If I were to join in, I probably get bullied by the gals. Haha... Then again, who doesn't like to be surrounded by girls? LOL... Arghhhh..... Too bad. Just hope the week pass by fast, then I will get to laugh at those "sun-burned" victims. Hahah...
Okay, I am somewhat pissed off today. This morning, I switched on my hand phone to see that everything in it has been erased. That means, I have to get everyone's contact all over again. All 96 of them... Bah!
School finished early, so me, Yew Mun, Rusydi, Jessica, Marie and Ying Hui went to North Point to have lunch at KFC. I ordered a colonel's special which cost $4.85, leaving me with practically nothing in my wallet. Arghhhh! Well, I could have chosen not to buy anything, but when a person gets too hungry, hell, who cares about how much you spend? Anyway, I am lucky that I did not have to buy anything... Phew~! As if my day could not get worse, I had diarrhea later on in the evening. Damn it. Probably the chicken I had in KFC... Bleah~~!
Today I went exploring my cupboard, which is full of ancient dust. I chanced upon my old photo albums, most of which were taken when I was young. Going through all these, I realised time pass very fast when you aren't paying attention. My childhood, my early teenage years, the times spent with my family and friends. Within the past ten years, alot has changed. My grandfather passed away, so did my grandmother from my father's side. We moved house in 1991, from Bishan to Jurong, I parted with friends in both Pirmary and secondary schools. A lot has passed since then. Both happy and sorrowful, they are still part of my memories. Much as I want to re-live them, I can't. What has passed, has passed. You cannot make time go backwards. Thus, the question is, "How can they be better remembered?" Any way possible? Perhaps. The thing is, I have never cherished what I had in the past, thinking they would last forever. When my grandma passed away, I did not understand why my relatives were crying. I was young then. Now, thinking of it, I wished I could have done better. I could have spend more time with my grandma before she died. That very thought make me feel regretful. Then again, if that incident hasd not happened, I probably would still be that very rude and uncaring brat who likes to whine and complain. Sigh... time passed very fast indeed. I feel nostalgic for the past. It makes up part of my life. It is what that is made up of me. haha... Regrets are for those who can't let go of the past. Embrace the future we must. Arghh.... Moral of the story? Cherish your past. Though you must let go of it, remember it well, cause it is part of you. Ah... I am toking crap here, mostly coz I am sleepy, and I have nothing else better to do. Ta-ta.
Arghh..... I am getting very desperate today... I spent the whole of yesterday to look for a present for a friend's birthday. No inspiration. Likewise, I had no inspiration for today. haha... |Guess if this continues, I will really get a key chain for her. LOL! Anyway, I still hve saturday and sunday to decide. Gonna wish myself luck...
"A person who wants too much in life risks losing everything that he has achieved. Then again, one who wants too little, may not get anything at all..."
*ps* man, that's so cool...
ah.... Me feeling very tired today. Yesterday was YJC orientation day, lasting from 7am to 9pm. My muscles still feel quite subdued from all the so-called fun activities, my eyelids felt as if an anchor is hanging underneath it. Well, frankly I found it to be fun, though it can be exhausting... OK, enough about yesterday. Well, today proved to be a little uneventful(not that I mind). I had to wake up at 7am today in order to be punctual for my physiotherapy appointment(don't bother asking me why), after which, I went for a medical check up, to prove to those instructors that I am fit and healthy enough to go for the OBS(Outward Bound Singapore) course, lasting 5 days. In the meantime, I found out that I had mild asthma when I was very young, but recovered in 1997. Phew... LOL... Ok, thats it fer now. Bzzzzzzz.......
Today, I felt like a great burden have been lifted from my shoulders. I had a dental appointment to extract the next and final 2 teeth... So no more extractions needed... Hee hee. All I have to do now, is to wait for the day I put on my braces. No more worries, no more torture. Haha...
