Wah...... What a long weekend... Tmr I will be taking my grade 8 piano exam... Feeling the stress now. haha... Coz I can't fail it again. I have been thinking about my life alot lately... What the heck am I going to do in the future??? Am I doing the right thing? Take this exam for example. Do I really understand what is the point of it all? Why do I take it in the first place? What if I pass? What if I fail? Have I really thought about it all? Or do I just crash through everything, big or small, without a care? sigh... Sometimes I wonder what do I really live for. Sometimes I really feel as if I am a failure. It always seems that I am not in control of my own path. Swayed very much by circumstances, and no centre. The year 2004 is prove. I very much failed parctically everything last year. Though I have somewhat improved this year-so far- its not much better than expected. And I still think my life sucks, with or without my academic results. Haha... Such irony for someone who doesn't believe that fate determines all. Well, I have thought about it. Regardless of my performance for tomorrow, I will temporarily stop learning the piano. I mean, I will still play it, but I would not take it up seriously. Firstly, because next year would be very busy for me--well, provided I survived this year-- secondly, I need a break from it. Haha.... Ah well, gotta prepare myself for tomorrow... Well, if there's any consolation, I get to leave school early tomorrow. =)

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