Endless StruggleWhat has come over me?
Longing to say the words meant for you,
and yet not uttering a single sound.
Wanting to care for you,
and yet not making a single move.
What has come over me?
To wish you were here with me,
and yet disappear when you are around.
I dare not look deep into your eyes,
for fear that it may all come to nothing.
What has come over me?
Sleepless nights, I pondered.
I feel lost, without you.
I feel despair, without you.
I long to see you.
Hold you.
Feel you.
But I dare not.
What has come over me?
Cursed by the lack of courage,
I falter...
And slip back into the darkness.
The endless darkness,
where no one knows.
My dark secret.
Damn this curse...
I wish for the strength,
to look at you once more,
to tell you what I have always wanted to tell you...
I love the funny way you tie your hair,
the way you laugh,
and the way you smile.
Most of all,
I love you.
I wish for the strength,
to ask for your hand,
to protect you,
and to be there if you need me.
But I guess...
I may never get across the wall of fear,
with my dreams,
remaining just like a dream.
What has come over me???
Please...
Please save me....
I love you
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This is a poem/words/rubbish that I created at the spur of the moment, when I was suddenly experiencing some powerful emotions. With my fingers, I penned--sry--typed this out. Copyright here. Haha, dun copy it. To see more of my poems/words/rubbish, go to www.melvin-poems.blogspot.com
First week of school has passed... Feeling kinda pressurized now, coz there's tons of new topics to cover. Stress!!! Thermo chemistry is starting to freak me out. Integration is threatening to dis-INTEGRATE me, transport in plants is going to bore me to death. Whatever it is, I will strive to do my best this year! This is the final year for me, I cannot let up the pace... A lvls, I'm gonna crush you like an insect. Grrrrr.... haha. Anyway, was browsing through some websites, came across a pretty thought intriguing article... Why? coz it makes me think. Haha nvm lame. Well, here goes:
Too many of us stayed walled because we are too afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care as much, at all.
Have u ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? Or have u cast aside your feelings because u thought things were impossible?
Why keep them to yourself... when you know you won't want to have them? Why let them miss other chances...when they can have them?
If you really don't love someone....let them go...hurt them NOW... not later...for a longer relationship builds stronger emotions...
A good relationship isn't a game you play or an ego trip you take. It is about love and two people.
Loving someone can give us the greatest joy we can ever know and it can hurt more than we can believe too. When it does not really hurt when that person did something disappointing to you, but really hurts when you see that person in pain and sadness, then you know you truly love that person.
Loving someone means you should be ready to experience heartache and happiness at the same time. That's the reward and that's the risk. Unless we are willing to experience it, we will never really know what it's like to love and be loved. Sharing love is probably the most valuable and meaningful experience a person can ever have. And there's a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. It's the difference between a love that's fickle, wild and short-lived and one that's tender and passionate, nurturing and lasts a long time. The first is easy. The second, the one that really matters to all of us, takes work because it's about keeping a relationship.
Loving someone takes efforts. We have to be able to communicate with each other. Nobody can read anyone else's mind. We always presume that our partner knows what we think and feel. Maybe in time we might be able to predict or sense each other's thoughts but it's never perfect and takes time to develop. Getting the chance to love and be loved by someone is blessed. Respect him/her for who he/she is and not what you want him/her to be. Everyone is pretty and special in his/her own special way. No one is perfect. It is true love which closes the gap of imperfectness to form a smooth surface of acceptance for each other. True love sees and accepts a person for who he/she is. It is also true love which makes a person change for the better. The power of true love to a person is undeniable. A relationship needs commitments too. What is love without commitments from each other anyway? It's like principles and values. Everyone has them but they only mean as much as we are willing to stand for them. The same goes for our commitments to relationships, and the person we love.
"Love is like an antique vase. It's hard to find, hard to net, but easy to break." Every day everywhere, people fall in love ... but just how many of these relationships are self-sacrificing love, and not just relationships which are formed only for the intense! Feeling of falling in love? I know hundreds of friends who say the magical words "I love you"... but more often than not, the truth is just I am IN love with you. There is a difference between being in love with someone and loving someone. If a person says he/she is in love with you, he/she means that he/she likes you for who you are now and he/she fell in love with you because of the present you. This kind of love is temporary and lasts only as long as the fairytale lasts. When fairy godmother comes in at midnight to whirl us back to reality, we see the heartache of such a relationship... where both were only IN love with each other. But if a person says he/she loves you, he/she means that he/she loves you unconditionally for who you are now, who you were in the past and who you might be in the future. When he/she says he/she loves you and really means it, you have to ask yourself if you love him/her too or if you're in love with the idea of being in love. It is very hard to see the difference through logical thinking. Let your heart guide u. May you be blessed on your soul-searching journey = for your soul mate.
ARE YOU REALLY IN LOVE? ASK YOURSELF! Is this true love? Do I really love him/her? Or is it just another infatuation? R U willing to give? Even though you may not get back the same amount you gave? R U cheating yourself? Thinking that you really love him/her and not just taking him/her as a substitute for your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend? Friends, let today be the day....... you truly understand love....... If after reading this and answering all the questions, you are very sure that you love him/her, tell him/her that. Let him/her know how much you love him/her and that you are willing to take the risks of being hurt by him/her in the course of the development of your relationship with him/her. This is a love that's sacrificial, Are you ready for it? If you accept someone's philosophy that is simply their rationalization to justify their failure, you accept their failures!"
**The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take. ** If you think something will make you happy, go for it. **Remember that we pass this way only once. **
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is being someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.
Listen For Love. There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel. For fear of embarrassing the other person, or ourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you." So we try to communicate the idea in other words. We say 'take care' or 'don't drive too fast' or 'be good.' But really, these are just other ways of saying 'I love you,' 'you are important to me,' 'I care what happens to you,' 'I don't want you to get hurt.'
We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean. And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted.
Therefore, we have to LISTEN FOR LOVE in the words that people are saying to us. Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important. A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments which are expressed insincerely. An impulsive hug says I LOVE YOU even though the words might be saying very different. Any expression of a person's concern for another says I love you. Sometimes the expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. Sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love that contains. But it is often there, beneath the surface. A mother may nag her son constantly about his grades or cleaning his room. The son may hear only the nagging, but if he listens carefully, he will hear the love underneath the nagging. His mother wants him to do well, to be successful. Her concern and love for her son unfortunately emerge in her nagging. But it is love all the same. A daughter comes home way past her curfew, and her father confronts her with angry words. The daughter may hear only the anger, but if she listens carefully, she will hear the love under the anger. "I was worried about you," the father is saying. 'Because I care about you and I love you. You are important to me.'
We say I love you in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes with tears. Sometimes we show our love by just keeping quiet and not saying a word, at other times by speaking out, even brusquely. We show our love sometimes by impulsiveness. Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express.
The problem in listening for love is that we don't always understand the language of love which the other person is using. A girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say, and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be talking his language. Thus, we have to force ourselves to really listen for love. The problem with our world is that people rarely listen to each other. They hear the words, but they don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the expression on the face. Or people listen only for rejection or misunderstanding. They do not see the love that is there just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry. We have to listen for love in those around us. If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realize. Listen for love and we will find that the world is a very loving place, after all.
LOVE is a happy thing.
It makes us laugh.
It makes us sing.
It makes us sad.
It makes us cry.
It makes us seek the reason why.
It makes us take.
It makes us give.
Above all else it makes us LIVE.
It is not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone. But that does not make us lonely. It is not a matter of being present WITH someone. It is a matter of being present TO someone.
So remember ... If you love someone, tell them. Remember always to say what you mean. Never be afraid to express yourself. Take this opportunity to tell someone what they mean to you. Seize the day and have no regrets.
Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today and are what it's all about anyway.
The difference between expressing love and having regrets is that the regrets may stay around.
