Endless Struggle

What has come over me?
Longing to say the words meant for you,
and yet not uttering a single sound.
Wanting to care for you,
and yet not making a single move.
What has come over me?
To wish you were here with me,
and yet disappear when you are around.
I dare not look deep into your eyes,
for fear that it may all come to nothing.
What has come over me?
Sleepless nights, I pondered.
I feel lost, without you.
I feel despair, without you.
I long to see you.
Hold you.
Feel you.
But I dare not.
What has come over me?
Cursed by the lack of courage,
I falter...
And slip back into the darkness.
The endless darkness,
where no one knows.
My dark secret.
Damn this curse...
I wish for the strength,
to look at you once more,
to tell you what I have always wanted to tell you...
I love the funny way you tie your hair,
the way you laugh,
and the way you smile.
Most of all,
I love you.
I wish for the strength,
to ask for your hand,
to protect you,
and to be there if you need me.
But I guess...
I may never get across the wall of fear,
with my dreams,
remaining just like a dream.
What has come over me???
Please...
Please save me....
I love you
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This is a poem/words/rubbish that I created at the spur of the moment, when I was suddenly experiencing some powerful emotions. With my fingers, I penned--sry--typed this out. Copyright here. Haha, dun copy it. To see more of my poems/words/rubbish, go to www.melvin-poems.blogspot.com

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