I sat alone on the bench in some kind of park, staring up at the night sky a while ago. Not that I have taken a personal liking to observing stars, but I can't simply find any reason to get up and walk off. I got to admit, sometimes the night sky does look beautiful... Somehow I suddenly started to reflect on my life. Somehow, suddenly my life doesn't seem as clear as before. I am very uncertain of where my life is going to bring me, and I have absolutely no idea where I am headed at. Sometimes, I wonder, why am I having the kind of life I have right now? Well, its in the pits. My studies sucks, my love life sucks, sometimes I even wonder whether the people I hang out with really treat me as a friend. *sigh* Somebody please tell me what the hell is wrong with me?! Fate dictates that sometimes we have ups and downs in life, joys and sorrows, whatever. But somehow, in the past year or so, everything has been going downhill ever since. The joys that I have always desired never came. The kind of life that I wanted never happened. What I wanted, desired, they seem to dance before my very eyes, but somehow always eluded my grasp. Hell, even a chance of a blossoming relationship had never taken place. Instead, it withered and died before it could even happen. I am utterly alone in this journey of mine. Don't ask me why, I just felt this way. ARGH, what the hell am I talking about anyway? What the hell...what the hell... just lose myself............. whee.

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