Life is similar to a game of Chess. Once a move is made, there's no turning back. Every move, has an impact on the way the game is played. First comes thought. Then Choice. Followed by action, and ends with effect. A game of chess can bring many valuable insights of Life. In a game of Chess, there are 3 possibilities.
1.) Choices that are ruled by impulsiveness and recklessness, with little thought given for the consequences.
2.) Choices that are made due to well thought out strategies, with self awareness of each and every possible outcome.
3.) Choices that are made due to overplanning.
Of those 3 possibilities, only one is the ideal state of mind we should adopt, and that is possibilty number 2.
Choices that are made solely by impulsiveness and instinct will not get us anywhere. In life, or chess, or in anything we do. In the end, we will only realise that all that we have done, is useless. Choices made that are due to over planning is nothing great to boast about. Over planning leads to complacency. Complacency leads to underestimating and poor judgement. And poor judgement, leads to unexpected outcomes. Thus, a balance must be made between planning and acting on instinct, and this leads to possibility number 2. As Bruce Lee once said, "Do not focus too much on the finger that is pointing to the moon, or you will miss or its heavenly glory."
Life is like a game of Chess.
Life is a game.
A deadly one.
You know what's so ironic about that?
Life never was a game.
Got back my piano results yesterday. As expected, failed... Haiz. This sux. Aiya dun feel like talking abt it again. Think of my piano results I feel like killing myself. And promos. Screwed up my maths. Fuk. If I dun get at least an AO, I am out of YJ. Now tts a scary thought. But somehow I dun feel anything anymore. Guess I am past caring about my future liaoz. If I make it, that would be great. But If I don't, there's nothing I could do anyway. So why waste time worrying? The only sadness I feel is letting my parents down. Ah, wtf. Cya.
Promo main papers will be starting after next week.. And I have not really completed anything yet. The feeling is there... The feeling that something is lacking in my revision. The drive. The perserverence. The discipline. I keep telling myself to work harder, but all I get is reluctance. I force myself to learn. But the passion is not there. And now, I am starting to get mixed feelings about the promo exams. GP paper ended last Monday. Truthfully speaking, I feel uncertain about my performance for GP. And the up and coming exams... up till now I am still not confident of scoring well. Though I may have some improvements since the beginning of the year, but... I seriously think I have failed myself as a student. I simply am not achieving. Haiz... And my piano exam.. I havent got any news of my results from Cristofori yet. and usually, it means that I probably did not pass. Yet again. Wonder how would my parents react to it. Probably would think that I wasted their hard-earned money again. What's even worse is that I feel as if I am beginning to lose my touch. I can't really relate well to music anymore. And my playing seems to be getting worse by the day. Wtf is wrong with me manz? My greatest passion and skill, and yet it is slipping away from me. And I probably shouldn't be here blogging on this crucial period. Arghhh.... Wtf, wtf... Good luck to myself manz. Studying brings out the worse in me. Bye.
