Promo main papers will be starting after next week.. And I have not really completed anything yet. The feeling is there... The feeling that something is lacking in my revision. The drive. The perserverence. The discipline. I keep telling myself to work harder, but all I get is reluctance. I force myself to learn. But the passion is not there. And now, I am starting to get mixed feelings about the promo exams. GP paper ended last Monday. Truthfully speaking, I feel uncertain about my performance for GP. And the up and coming exams... up till now I am still not confident of scoring well. Though I may have some improvements since the beginning of the year, but... I seriously think I have failed myself as a student. I simply am not achieving. Haiz... And my piano exam.. I havent got any news of my results from Cristofori yet. and usually, it means that I probably did not pass. Yet again. Wonder how would my parents react to it. Probably would think that I wasted their hard-earned money again. What's even worse is that I feel as if I am beginning to lose my touch. I can't really relate well to music anymore. And my playing seems to be getting worse by the day. Wtf is wrong with me manz? My greatest passion and skill, and yet it is slipping away from me. And I probably shouldn't be here blogging on this crucial period. Arghhh.... Wtf, wtf... Good luck to myself manz. Studying brings out the worse in me. Bye.

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