Oh ho ho. I finally changed my blog song already! The title is "Always on My Mind", and it was sing by Michael Buble. However, I do not know who's the real composer and original singer of this song. But what I do know, it is a sweet song. Kinda what I am feeling lately. Always had someone on my mind, but unlike this song, I have never made it known, and probably going to stay that way for a damn long time. Haha...

I just realised something about myself today. I realised I am not a good conversant. I don't think I ever talked so much to other people, not because I didn't want to, but I am always stuck about what to say. Well, I guess this usually ends up in akward silence between me and others. Haha... how to get a girlfriend liddat? I am already 21, soon to be 22 in a few months' time. Haiz, probably a bad habit accumulated since young. Well, I have to admit though, army did changed me, in that I am more open to people around me nowadays, but somehow I am still not good at conversing. Haha... I also realised that I always liked to act cool in front of other people.

Today's wushu training at YJC also made me realise something else. Something Joleena said... Something about generation gap? Well, it suddenly just dawned on me: I am already 21 years old. Haha! Imagine that? Somehow, being 21 just pulls you back to earth with a rude shock. I'm 21, and where am I now? True, 21 is probably the age where people starts their first steps towards their goals and dreams, and its probably something worth looking forward to, but to have someone who's barely out of their teens say that to you, well, its a whole new meaning altogether. When I see my new wushu juniors training and slogging out in their studies, it kinda reminds you that we have already passed on that stage of life, and on to something bigger. Its like nostalgia, something that wishes that you are back to relive those memories, but its no longer there anymore. I suppose, sooner or later, everyone grows up, whether they like it or not. And I suppose, too, that part of growing up also involves learning that everything changes, and nothing ever changes back.

Haha! I write as if I am so old liddat. Gotta have to learn to relac one corner. So, to anybody kaypo enough to read this, learn to cherish your childhood. You only have one go at this. And spend less time on the friggin computer screen. Or the Television. Or the PSP. Go live your life to the fullest. Godamnit. I am 21.

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